
Death Stranding 2 reviewed - a video game sequel that delivers on all fronts
Any conclusions and theories you've made from the previous game are quickly unfounded, as new stories and new villains are waiting for you. Porters – get ready, as this sequel delivers something truly exceptional.
Seconds into Death Stranding 2, and I am already tumbling down the side of a mountain. I mistimed my very first step, and so the small task of walking back home feels Herculean in measure. In a game about travelling across rugged terrain, this does not bode well.
As I guide the poor protagonist, Sam Porter Bridges, through endless crevices, soothing the baby Lou who is strapped to my suit, I realise that the cult classic game from 2019 is back with a vengeance, somehow adding to the photorealism that made the original game so entrancing.
Despite my bad handling, Sam has a spring in his step. He and Lou have been busy trying to forge a life for themselves on the border of Mexico, just out of reach of detection from the Chiral network. And as we eventually reach home, what awaits brings a smile to my face. House plants dot rooms. Baby toys are scattered on the ground. Family photos decorate the walls.
This quaint life suits Sam, and I'm in no rush to move on from these scenes because deep down, I know the father-daughter harmony will be short-lived. In true post-apocalyptic fashion, the world will never stop needing Sam and Lou.
The polarising storytelling of Hideo Kojima is in full swing
Having successfully reconnected a divided America back together in the first game and preventing a mass extinction in the process, Sam is tasked once more with reconnecting the fringes of society back together, all the while battling with new enemies and monsters.
A surprise visit from an old friend, Fragile, beckons the world-renowned porter to join her new team, Drawbridge. The locations? First in neighbouring Mexico and then in distant Australia. As well as saving humanity, Sam is also on the hunt for answers never addressed in the previous game. And through this, the might, skill and wizardry of Hideo Kojima as a legendary storyteller is front and centre.
The story has been deliberately designed to challenge players. In an interview with Rolling Stone, co-composer Woodkid explained how Kojima changed the storyline halfway through the development. The reason? Test audiences were enjoying it too much. Yes, really.
"We have a problem", Kojima said. "I'm going to be very honest, we have been testing the game with players and the results are too good. They like it too much. That means something is wrong; we have to change something.
"If everyone likes it, it means it's mainstream. It means it's conventional. It means it's already pre-digested for people to like it. And I don't want that. I want people to end up liking things they didn't like when they first encountered it, because that's where you really end up loving something."
While I won't spoil the intricacies of the story that lies before you, suffice it to say the narrative is chock-full of twists, most impossible to anticipate. New characters appear with untold abilities and introduce unthinkable questions. For every 'Why?' I ask throughout the game's lengthy campaign, I could hear Kojima's answer, 'Why not?'.
Signature delivery gameplay and level design return to torment us
For the uninitiated deliverymen among us, Death Stranding 2 is a game all about travel. The world is a hostile place, with civilisation retreating to the fringes. As a porter, Sam has the arduous job of carrying cargo from A to B, often on foot, sometimes by flashy vehicle or monorail, slowly reconnecting isolated pockets of the world back to the Chiral network.
Sounds simple? Well, it's anything but.
As relaxing as you think a walk in the Australian outback might be, otherworldly beasts known as BTs (beached things) slink in the shadows, making passageways a death sentence. These souls have been stranded in the living world and are often only detectable at close range when you're inches away, and escape is impossible. They bring the supernatural to the game and will keep your heart rate elevated.
To make matters worse, bandits also roam the lands, scavenging supplies from unsuspecting innocents. And the terrain itself you need to traverse has somehow become even more cruel and twisted than you thought possible. Flat land does not exist anywhere in Australia, it seems.
At all times, your screen will be an endless landscape of rocks, cliffs, debris and natural hazards. One wrong move, one mistimed jump, or a corner taken too sharply is all it can take to see poor Sam topple down in a flash, cargo soon following suit. The desperate state of the world is conveyed to you through every step you take. Every hesitant jump feels like it could be your undoing. Every simple stroll takes on immense gravity.
Although Sam can scout routes beforehand and thus get intel on the dangers you 'might' face, you still need to expect the unexpected, as flooding, earthquakes and lethal rain (known as timefall) bring all manner of unwelcome pain. Great.
Thankfully, the series' signature asynchronous Porter system can help preserve your sanity. Throughout your playthrough, the actions of other players can inadvertently help you along your travels, as they leave behind core infrastructure and items around that you can use, help complete deliveries, as well as donate to community resources. Never underestimate the kindness of strangers, and remember that your contribution will help support a future Porter's adventures in the coming days and weeks ahead. You never know how helpful you might be.
An ensemble cast of iconic characters, new and old
At the heart of Death Stranding 2 is a cast of zany characters that bring the post-apocalyptic world to life, and help ground the absolutely bonkers plot that is being served up. While it's hard to accurately describe them without divulging the surprises in store, trust that each one brings the right amount of chaos, villainy or level-headedness needed to press on.
You've no doubt seen the teaser trailers, so it should come as no surprise to know that Troy Baker's Higgs makes a devilish return, albeit with new powers and scores to settle. It seems he's a little vexed by Sam stopping his plans of world destruction in the first game.
Léa Seydoux returns as the scene-stealing Fragile, who, I'll be honest, I could sit, watch and listen to all day. New characters like Neil (Luca Marinelli), Rainy (Shioli Kutsuna), Tomorrow (Elle Fanning), and Dollman (Jonathan Roumie) each bring about as many questions as they do answers about the world of Death Stranding, and are all well able to hold their own in the story's gripping cast.
Appearances from old friends are also aplenty, linking up the two games. While only a few months have passed, trust that a lot has happened to them, and the chance to meet up and swap war stories should excite you. But there needs to be a moment for Norman Reedus, who plays the world's favourite postman, Sam Porter Bridges.
Reedus' performance goes to exceptional lengths in showing just how far Sam is willing to go for answers. Particularly during cut scenes, it's as if the actor is just mere inches away from you, such is the level of photorealism as well as emotion on display. A nomination for his performance at the Game Awards is undoubtedly secured.
A wide variety of missions and combat opens up the world (and fun) of Death Stranding 2
The world of Death Stranding is expansive, to say the least, and people are hungry to reconnect with one another. As such, there is a wide variety of quests that Sam can undertake throughout his adventures. And despite my whinging about falling, I cannot deny it's incredibly entertaining.
Before each mission, Sam must pack his supplies, including the enormous cargo he is about to put his life on the line for. How you organise your items and their collective weight is the difference between succeeding with glowing marks or losing your sanity in the process.
If you're like me and want to be prepared for any eventuality, you'll pack everything and the kitchen sink, mixing a wide selection of guns, grenades, and trusty ladders to face (or avoid) foes. But being overly cautious is a double-edged sword, as you'll have created a leaning tower of cargo strapped to your back, making every movement you make even more hazardous.
An endless library of weapons, gadgets, and enhancements ensures that you're always creative with your aggression. Tackling optional cargo deliveries is also well-advised, as some of the best tools Sam can use are only provided by allies you've earned trust from. And trust me when I say you'll need all the help you can get facing the game's outrageous boss sequences.
Death Stranding 2: On the Beach might be Hideo Kojima's masterpiece
Hideo Kojima is a maestro of the bizarre. Just when you think you have a grip on the world of Death Stranding, this sequel arrives to confound you, destroying any conclusions you might have drawn from the original 2019 release.
With Death Stranding 2, you're treated to an engrossing adventure that draws you in quickly from the get-go. Despite being a single-player game, the story feels like it will become a collective experience. And I cannot wait for social media to become awash with abstract theories, each trying to make sense of the artistry you've just experienced.
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It is quite something if a man offers to buy you a fur hat. It is even quite something if a man, with arm twisted, agrees to buy you a fur hat. So, should you find yourself with a man who feels guilty enough and whose pockets you know to be deep, demand it. Say: I want a fur hat and I want you to buy one for me. Sam and I are in New York and today he will do just that. I am not meant to be in New York. I was brought here, a pity-bring, because of what had happened – something common and procedural, about which one must avoid being sentimental – and how it had made me lose my nerve. I had become scared to dress, scared to bathe, and scared, even, to pee, for when naked and looking down at my dipped hips and the downy wisps of my pubic hair, I ached. I had expected Sam to ache too, in solidarity, and hide away with me. For we are lovers, and lovers often mirror one another. But then Sam announced that he was going away, and to Manhattan of all places. 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Anything you like, Sam said, tearing his headphones out of their plastic sack. I thought of steely women in extravagant winter clothes, photographs I had seen of Maria Callas, Jackie O. A fur hat, I said. I want a fur hat. I have, in fact, behaved. I have skipped nicely through Sam's old haunts: a corner of Central Park in which, he told me, his ashes would one day be scattered; a cocktail bar downtown in which the hostess hugged him from behind; a fabled deli in the Bronx, in which rotting sausages were strung up like garlands and my nose never quite adjusted, my eyes tick-ticking with the turning meat smell. In every space, the I want has simmered under my tongue, keeping me sweet. And today is our last day so, before we make our way to JFK, the fur-hat-buying has to happen. An oyster grown in sewage would taste only of sewage. But here, you would say it was delicious Yes, Sam said this morning, when I woke and kissed and said, I want. 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But here, you would say it was delicious. That sounds delicious! I say. I am getting good at New York Talk. Marcus says that he once owned a set of gold-plated forks, all of which, over a decade, had disappeared into people's handbags. And whose handbags were they? He peers at me in joke suspicion, but it is true that I am the outsider here, the stranger who has breakfasted at his breakfast bar and looked up, up, at him offering comments on books – good books, books by Russians- with the hope that he deem me interesting. For that is always the challenge, appealing to the nearest and dearest. But should said dearest be Marcus , whose conversation flips into a glinting shoal of names, many of which, it hits you – is made to hit you through moments of sharp emphasis – are from the depths of your boyfriend's sexual past, stay calm. Change tack. Play the role most easily available to you: meek, sweet, coquette. So now, I fluff my hair, I unzip my purse, I open it wide and hold it up to Marcus's eyes to say: see? No forks in here! Marcus smirks and Sam nods: yes, Helena, correct. Nancy wouldn't join us for lunch. She is reviewing an opera tonight and can't have a social day if work is involved. Or so Marcus said, raising his eyebrows. My darling critic, Marcus calls her. My little workaholic. Anyway, if Nancy does eat lunch, it wouldn't be with me. I was looking in the bathroom mirror earlier and she arrived – for creams or teeth – but when she saw me, she shucked and twisted back for the bedroom, the heels of her slippers slapping against the floor. Marcus, slumped in the living room with the newspaper, caught me on my way to dress and said, You should understand. That girl is not for the mornings. That girl is not for the evenings either. When we all went for cocktails on the first night, Marcus announced that he and Nancy were engaged. Nancy, wearing a huge woollen cape and hunching to hide the width of her shoulders, hunched even lower when Marcus said it. We have decided that we might as well get married. I said nothing, twirled my olive stick. Sam finished his Negroni, and he said nothing too. It was a bar of hard surfaces, the chatter of one table colliding with that of another – and as the saying-nothing continued, I wondered whether Marcus had announced anything at all. Then Sam, loosened, began describing his Dublin life. And I know his Dublin life, I am his Dublin life, but in his telling it was as if he were looking at the life from above, making it all small and dull and squashable. Nancy, sitting up, said, Surely you'll come back to New York? If it's such a dump? And so Sam started on visa-talk – he would need to procure an American wife- and it was as if he were twizzling a needle into the soft corner of my eye which stung, stung such that I was worried I might glitch, say something I shouldn't. I pressed Sam's palm against burning cheek to mean: stop now, please. By the last round, I had reset. I stood on my tiptoes to kiss Marcus nicely on the cheek and Sam nicely on the lips and I thanked them for the evening. Sam put his hand on my back. Of course, my sweet. A pleasure! Marcus said. Nancy stared at me with sharp, green eyes and swished out into the street. Back at the apartment, Nancy balanced on the windowsill, knees tight at her chest and one arm dangling down. Marcus rushed to the guest room where Sam and I were undressing and said, Come, watch this. We crept into the hallway as Marcus sidled up to Nancy with a spliff and cooed, Pspsps , Nancy-Nancy, here's your bedtime joint. She offered her hand. Marcus slid the spliff between her fingers. She lit it, took a long drag, and shooed us all away. Later, when Sam and I were lying together, I asked why he had not congratulated Marcus and Nancy on their engagement. God, he said. I thought that was a joke. He laughed then, a big laugh during which I could see the brown tops of his molars. Well, well. We'll send them flowers after we leave. I do not see why Nancy deserves flowers for she does not play right. She should know never to glare or to round her shoulders. She should know where it is acceptable to turn her sadness or anger on, and to otherwise twist the tap and shut it off. I am younger by 11 whole years, but already much better at this than her. I felt that Sam and I should have sex then, but we had been told to wait for two weeks, lest I risk an infection, and Sam would not take another risk. So, we lay alongside one another, holding hands. And when I began to cry in short, sharp bursts, Sam held the duvet up to make for me a safe and private hideaway: shh, shh. In the morning, Marcus informed us that we had kept him up with our night-time noises. I apologised; Sam buttered his toast with jumpy strokes. No need to apologise! Marcus said. I'm glad someone's having fun here. Nancy stared into her coffee cup and twice she loudly yawned. Marcus says there is a name in New York for girls like me – willowy, eager girls who leap into an older man's bed and bounce. We are, he says, the 'out-of-town ingénues'. He says this as a tease, but even as a tease it makes no sense. I do not bounce. I am stiff in bed, and with Sam, because he made me shy, I was stiffer still. And I am not from a different town, I am from a different world. And now that I exist here, in this American brand of bright light and blue-lipped cold, my world seems completely fragile – as if, with my back turned, it might have been hacked apart into tiny shards and those shards sucked away. I can't, I said. The hole doesn't open. It does, Sam said, that's why we are here The oysters are over. Shells, empty and turned upside down like stony petals on the plate. The waiter appears with a crème brûlée. I don't remember anyone ordering dessert. I must have been distracted; my thinking splintered. Sam hands me a dessert spoon. I tap once at the thin layer of caramelised sugar; it gives; I scoop out the custard. The girl should take the first bite before the men start eating, that's the rule. And isn't it strange that I know this, that I have learned this? It was never the rule at home. Suddenly, I want to stand; I want to press my forehead against Marcus's and to spit, low and fierce, I don't need your forks, whatever the value. I have my own and they are good enough. But I know not to be low or fierce in an oyster bar. It is true, though, that I have done things that I know you should not do. I know that you should not miss pills, or leave gaps longer than 12 hours, but I did. I skipped. I knew that you should track cycles and that there were ways of being careful, but I wasn't. I disconnected. And I knew it was a mistake and mistakes are a source of great stress but when, 10 weeks on, I was shown the images by a so-sorry technician, I felt neither panic nor disgust, but a calm and easy recognition. Like coming upon a favourite jumper at the back of the cupboard drawer. Oh, I thought, so there you are. So, there you are, I sang, on the bus, in the bath. So, there you are; you are there. But for Sam, it was no easy feeling. He drank one glass of water quickly, then another. He opened the fridge and stared inside, at the eggs and the milk and the container we keep for the odd knobs of Parmesan cheese. You are so young, he said. It would be the wrong time. And I suppose it would be silly to have a child instead of living a full life. In bed, Sam was helpful and kind. He sat with me until I moved my chest up and down like a person asleep, whereupon he slipped away to read. Alone, I put my hand on my stomach and pressed in, in, trying to find the beating thing. So, there you were, I whispered. There you were; you were there. We went private and it was all so quick to arrange. In the hospital, Sam was helpful too. They gave me a pill to push into myself to begin loosening my cervix, but I did not understand how to do it, so the woman had to demonstrate with an upwards swoop. She left the room to give me privacy, but I did not want privacy. I wanted to leave. I should not, I began to say, to sob. And Sam was nervous, saying, don't say that. It'll cause problems. In his nervousness, he was sharp, so I tried; I put my fingers inside and pushed but was met by a warm, hard wall, as if I were bringing a vegetable to the mouth of a toddler and smashing, smashing it against their stubborn gums. I can't, I said. The hole doesn't open. It does, Sam said, that's why we are here. I'm not doing it, I said. You have to do it, not me. Sam hesitated. He walked to the door and locked it. He stood over the bed. He took the pill from me. I held my blanket over my nose and mouth and breathed through him – I have slept with this blanket every night for 22 years, he, he was always a 'he', has faded from blue to grey and his corners have worn away from rubbing against my knuckles – and Sam stroked my upper thigh, and then began circling, circling my clitoris with his thumb. He waited for my breathing to slow and to deepen, and then he slid one finger into a space that I myself have never known, and lodged the pill there, where it began to dissolve, prising apart the tight threads of me – I could feel the unlacing, it was a burning like a stitch – and opening my body wider, wide enough so that it would do the thing I couldn't, wouldn't otherwise do: let go. Afterwards, when I came up on a wheeling bed and was instructed to pass urine, Sam hobbled me to the loo. He eased down the gauze knickers that had appeared upon me, and, afterwards, he placed my chin on his shoulder as he ducked, wiped clean the seat and lip of the bowl and flushed, all so that I was not witness to the blood. * The lunch bill arrives in a smart, black jacket and Marcus slips some cash inside. He must be getting on. He has a function to attend. What, I say, is the function of a function? Marcus laughs, ruffles my hair. I duck. Shake him off. Perhaps you should be taking this one along to 47th Street, Sam, he says. What is 47th Street? I say. The Diamond District, Helena, Sam says. We'll save that one for another trip, eh? Marcus unhooks his coat, wishes us a pleasant flight home and makes for the door, trousers bunching under the fat of his buttocks. He is sweating. We all are, having been pummelled for the last hour by the station's central heating. I am excused; I go to the bathroom. My pad is wet through and smells of pennies. I hold it close to smell the penny smell and to check, but, of course – and I am no simple girl, but sometimes the mind plays tricks, it imagines souls where there are no souls, cells where there are no cells – there is nothing there. But even so, I want. I lean against the stall wall and I want. I roll the pad up, bin it, replace it. When I return, Sam is holding out my coat. I am threaded through the sleeves, the I want pulsing in me as little, precious shocks. I shiver into them. For to know that you want, that you can want – wanting being the fullest feeling, the only one that will ever ache the whole of you – is a rare and a magical thing. So, if you have had a want, understand it. Own it. Twist it into something real. Sam, I say, taking his hands in mine. I want my fur hat. Yes, sweetheart. Let's get you your fur hat. We walk together. Sam swings my arm in a game and he is chatting to me, freely, happily. It has been good. Good to have me along. He is mine again, now that Marcus has gone. When we reach the Fur District, Sam explains about wholesalers. A wholesaler means that no money is spent on the customer experience. The salesmen and women do not have to be nice to us. In fact, they may be rude. I can do rude, I say. We step down a dip and into a shop. It is dark and dusty. Bare mannequins loom in the window, arms bent into awkward angles as if engaged in timid dance. A man emerges from a basement place and asks what it is we want. We want a fur hat, Sam says. Fox, preferably. Pillbox. The man produces a wooden pole. He hooks down a series of hats that hang high on the wall: hats with stripy tails, hats that are dyed green and purple, fur-lined baseball caps of wrinkling brown leather. Not quite, Sam says. Something plainer, grander. In black. The man grunts. Nothing for you today. Try tomorrow. We fly tonight, Sam says. We will go elsewhere. Goodbye! I say. Thanks for all your help! We climb back on to the street and I am imagining my fur hat. I am imagining strutting through this city with my hat in my arms: black and fox and grand and soft. I will be a woman of great power, with my fur hat. A woman who does not care about cruelty. A woman who looks you in the eye and dares you – just dares you – to throw red paint. Maya Kulukundis Maya Kulukundis recently completed an MPhil in creative writing at the Oscar Wilde Centre. Her publications include stories in Banshee and the anthology Tidings (Lilliput Press, 2024). She was awarded an IWC Duo Mentorship in 2023 and was selected for the Stinging Fly six-month fiction workshop in 2024. She is working on a short story collection