Vogue Williams admits she's going to be an 'absolute disgrace' ahead of 40th birthday party as she reflects on being 'divorced with no kids' at 30
Reflecting on how far she has come after finding herself 'divorced with no kids' at 30, the presenter said she was 'excited' about hitting the milestone.
Vogue has now built a happy family life with Made in Chelsea star Spencer Matthews, 36, and together they share three children, Theodore, Gigi, and Otto.
But ten years ago her life was very different after divorcing Westlife singer Brian McFadden.
Speaking to Heat in an interview from Tuesday's magazine, she said: 'When I approached my 30th, I was like, "Whoops, I'm divorced and have no kids."
'I thought I'd have kids, be married and happy by then. We put so much pressure on ourselves at that age.'
Vogue continued: 'But I'm really excited about going into my 40s. I've got such great friends and family. I feel like I've got to a point where I love what I'm doing and doing things I'm proud of.
'If I'd seen what I was doing now 20 years ago, I would have been amazed. It's a privilege to turn 40, and I'm just getting started!
'I'm going to be an absolute disgrace! I'm going to celebrate throughout the year – a big party in Dublin in August and a party in London.'
In a candid conversation with Mail columnist Bryony Gordon, 'relationship girl' Vogue, recently revealed she 'thought her life was over' after divorcing Brian on the latest installment of the Mail's 'The Life of Bryony' podcast.
She remembered feeling as though she had 'ruined her life' in 2017 after her divorce aged 31.
'I am excited at turning forty', Vogue told the podcast.
'When you are 19 or 20, you think that 40-year-olds are really old and battered. Then you actually get there and you think, this is a really nice moment.
'In your thirties, you are still trying to figure stuff out. I remember being divorced at 31 and thinking, I've ruined my life. I am never going to have kids, I am never going to do what I always wanted to do.'
Vogue continued: 'If I'd seen what I was doing now 20 years ago, I would have been amazed. It's a privilege to turn 40, and I'm just getting started! I'm going to be an absolute disgrace!'
'Then you see how your life actually starts to unfold – that's why it feels exciting to move into your forties.'
In her eagerly awaited autobiography Big Mouth, Vogue details her struggles with anxiety that have cast a shadow throughout her adulthood.
Vogue told Bryony she manages the disorder far better now, with a 'great' and supportive family behind her.
However, the model admitted that the 'noise' surrounding her marriage to TV star Spencer still manages to get under her skin.
On her anxiety, Vogue explained: 'It's this thing in your life that you wish would just go away. Sometimes it's fine, sometimes it's a lot worse.
'When I wake up, I am really conscious of any mood I could be in. It's why I don't drink much now because that is something for me that is a huge trigger of anxiety.
'I will always have beta-blockers in the cupboard, but I rarely take them. It depends on what's happening in my life.
'For me now, it's more the outside noise of my job and people outside of my family that stress me out.
'In this industry, certain people are very much out for themselves. The way they portray themselves isn't true - it's not actually who they are.'
To catch Vogue and Bryony's full and frank conversation, search for 'The Life of Bryony' now, wherever you get your podcasts.
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