I'm taking drastic measures to restore my virginity after God gave me an eight-word message
Holly Jane, 42, was exposed in 2022 for operating a lucrative OnlyFans account that kept her and her three children afloat after her husband died in 2017.
After being expelled from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Oregon for breaking its rules on pornography and 'immoral' content, she felt cut off from her faith and community.
Since then, Jane and her children have moved to Texas, where she said she's grown stronger in faith.
Shortly after the move, she experienced what she called a 'divine directive' in which she felt God speak to her, 'You are not broken. Go and be restored.'
'I had already made peace with God about my job and what I've had to do to put food on the table after my husband died,' she said. 'This felt like the final layer of that healing.'
A hymenoplasty is a surgical procedure where a doctor reconstructs the hymen, often torn during first intercourse, by stitching remaining tissue to form a thin membrane.
Jane maintains that the decision to undergo the outpatient surgery is not meant to appease her church or potential suitors, but she is now 'treating [her]self with reverence.'
Jane hopes to be accepted into the Mormon church where she lives in Texas now. She said that despite being severed from her church community for years, she still feels attuned to her faith
Hymenoplasty is most prevalent in conservative communities where cultural or religious norms place a high value on proof of virginity before marriage.
Within about 60 minutes, a doctor can stitch the remaining hymenal tissue back together with dissolvable sutures.
The 'sacred rebirth', as Jane calls it, costs about $3,000 without insurance, which does not cover such a procedure.
Jane and her husband, Stephen, were devout Mormons and had been raising their three children, now 22, 16, and 12, in the Mormon church.
When Stephen died unexpectedly at 31, Jane needed a way to support her family.
She began taking risqué snaps of herself in lingerie or swimwear on the subscriber site, all while keeping it a secret from her family, friends, and church members.
She spent years living a 'double life' as OnlyFans' 'Mormon Mistress', making tens of thousands of dollars a month in the process.
After a fellow churchgoer alerted the bishop to her side hustle, Jane was shunned.
After a fellow churchgoer alerted the bishop to her side hustle, Jane was shunned from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Oregon
'That warm feeling I had for the people in that church, the connection I thought we shared – it turned out to be one-sided. I cared more than they did,' she previously told this site.
'I moved and cut ties with them all, and no one ever called or reached out... I've experienced a lot of loss.'
She and her children moved to Texas, where Jane continued posting.
While she felt judged and betrayed by her community, Jane kept her faith alive.
The divine voice telling her to undergo the hymen restoring procedure, she said, 'gave me everything I needed.'
She added that, without a doubt, Stephen would have been supportive of her decision.
'I am not trying to erase him or what we had together,' she said. 'On the contrary, I believe that by doing something to strengthen the faith we both shared, we are brought closer together – even though he is no longer with us.'
Her decision was not borne out of shame, she added, though she previously told DailyMail.com that she believes women in the LDS church are conditioned to feel ashamed of their sexuality.
'The church says purity can be lost – but I believe purity is claimed,' she said. 'It's not about your body, it's about your soul.'
Despite not agreeing with all of the Mormon views, Jane still practices the religion and is trying to be accepted into the church in her new town.
'I felt like there was an emptiness since I stopped attending [church]. But I'll never stop [my OnlyFans career],' she told this site.
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