Lorde admits to tough time where she didn't think she'd 'ever make music again' as all she thought about was 'weighing as little as possible'
The singer, 28, - who made her return to the music scene with a secret set at Glastonbury this year - spoke in a candid interview with Jack Saunders on Radio 1 on Monday.
She told how at the start of 2023 she was struggling mentally and wasn't able to focus on any creative pursuits or making music.
At Glastonbury she had said on stage that she thought she'd 'never make music again' - a comment with Jack asked her to clarify in their interview.
The New Zealand-born star explained: 'At the beginning of 2023 I was just not in a great way in a lot of ways and I'd never felt more distant from my creativity. I didn't think I had anything to offer and I hadn't had an idea in a while.
'This was a period when I was trying to weigh as little as possible and going to sleep and thinking about food and weight and wake up thinking about food and exercise and that was creative pursuit you know...
'That was where it was all going and at that time I was like I really need to stop doing this because it's blocking all my artistry.
'Once that went away it all started to come back!'
It comes after Lorde surprised fans at her record release party in Berlin last Wednesday when she performed to a small group of lucky attendees.
The star, who recently raised eyebrows with her latest album cover's artwork, arrived at riverside venue Spindler & Klatt on a boat.
She flashed her midriff in a crossover halterneck top that featured a tasselled trim and black cargo trousers.
The event, hosted by Universal Music, was to celebrate the launch of her new album Virgin, with fans having no idea that the musician would actually perform.
The album cover features an x-ray of her pelvis with her hip bones, belt buckle, and zipper visible and - inter-uterine device included.
It's not entirely clear if the X-ray is of Lorde but DailyMail.com has reached out for comment to confirm.
The singer dropped the visual to her Instagram where she also announced the title of her fourth studio album and it's release date as June 27.
Elsewhere, Lorde was pictured with her rumoured new man, Jim E-Stack, 33, after seemingly going public with their relationship at Glastonbury recently.
The musician, from New Zealand, wowed fans with a surprise set at the iconic music festival.
Following the performance, she was seen arriving at the London Heliport in Battersea with Jim.
He is a producer and DJ, who has also worked with the likes of Haim, Bon Iver and Empress Of.
According to The Sun, the singer was spotted 'getting close with the musician on stage' after playing the surprise Glastonbury set.
The pair were also seen 'with their arms around each other while they watched The 1975' and went on 'partying until well after 4am'.
MailOnline has contacted Lorde's representatives for comment.
The blossoming romance comes as Jim's ex-girlfriend Kacy Hill took a savage dig at him on her TikTok platform.
The American singer, 31, revealed that her six-and-a-half year relationship came to an end when he started working with Lorde on her single Man Of The Year.
She penned: 'Let's hear it for the man who ended a 6.5 year relationship while making a girl's album then started dating her'.
Lorde and Jim were previously linked in October 2024 when the pair were seen making a rare public outing in New York.
At the time, Lorde hadn't been pictured with her then music executive boyfriend Justin Warren since March 2023.
The pair began fuelling rumours they are working on a new album together after Jim E-Stack shared a photo of Lorde to Instagram in August.
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